Friends

So ben and I have been talking again, not sure if that's a good or bad thing, but he came over last night. I really wanted to see him but at the same time I didn't. Of course I still care about him and of course we had a great time like usual and I always have felt that connection between us...but I know he's never going to be my BOYFRIEND or make it official and that's what I want. I want the real thing, and he is just someone that wants to date me. I am still keeping my options open and I do have a couple other interests, one being..Shane from Silverstein. I felt a connection instantaneously when we hung out at the show, and we text all day...and they're in europe now, but I can't wait to see him when he comes back this way, or maybe he'll visit me sooner. He said he feels like our meeting is meant to be and I feel the exact same way. I am not gonna let ben consume me anymore...but if he wants to hang out I guess I'll consider it depending on how I feel.